The YouTuber talks about love, loss, and moving on
Popular YouTuber Zeinab Harake recently suffered a series of heartbreaks. Her ex cheated on her and she lost their second baby. She recently opened up about her problems on another vlogger’s video.
For several years, Zeinab was in an on-and-off relationship with rapper Skusta Clee. The pair have a one-year-old daughter, Zebbiana or “Bia” for short. They named her after a song Skusta wrote for Zeinab during a previous falling-out.
Back in April, Zeinab shocked fans when she posted about losing their son.
In her interview, Zeinab revealed that Skusta left her to her own devices. She faced the fleeting pregnancy, the miscarriage, and even their baby’s burial on her own.
Zeinab Harake on self love
Her world changed when she birthed Bia in April 2021. Looking back, Zeinab says motherhood helped her heal. The breakup and miscarriage happened close to Bia’s baptism and birthday. That pushed her to persevere.
“Natakot ako kasi feeling ko hindi ko magagawa na wala si Moon, wala na kami nung tatay habang buntis ako. Sabi ko, ‘Sige, Zeb. Itong two weeks na ito, iiyak mo ito, ibaliw-baliw mo lang ito sa kuwarto. Gawin mo lahat para maging okay ka, ‘tapos ayos ka na kasi magbi-birthday yung anak mo. Kailangan ka nito.'”
Get better she did, managing to pull together a beautiful celebration for Bia. But she couldn’t help but get emotional during the party.
“Kaya ganun yung emosyon ko kasi ang saya-saya ko. Nabigay ko sa kanya yung birthday niya. Gusto ko kasi maging perfect lahat para sa kanya.”
Zeinab said she’s going to put baby Bia and her own well-being first from now on.
“Magsisimula na ako ng bagong buhay. Kailangan ko itapon yung trauma. Magmamahal lang ako pag deserve nung tao yung pagmamahal ko. Hindi ko ibibigay lahat, kasi kawawa ako sa dulo. Ayoko maging kagaya ko si Bia, yung mabilis magpatawad at madaling mauto.“
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